Dejected-Tear

I'm not actaully depressed and wanting to moan today like i normally am, its really weird

Basically me and Mike are still having argument but things are also a lot better, i feel like i can trust him a lot more now, and he just makes me feel good about myself

I'm actaully really happy

anyway im sat here drinking some wine, cos Phils just come online and well... it still annoys me when he's all happy about his girlfriend

As it draws closer i am starting to want it to come less and less

For months i've been waiting for my birthday to come so i can legally drink but now i cant wait for it to be over.

I invited as many people as i could, i mean its my 18th and i want to celebrate it with my friends, but apprently a dance comp, a piano lesson and a family meal or work are all more important

I was really looking forward to my party but now its just going to be a total sham, at least i guess it really shows you who your real friends are

It all started today at work when i found out i was working on rotary. I knew it was going to be bad because i always get shouted at and i get rushed around and end up spilling thing.

Anyway the other person was speaking to me like i'm a child, when im 18. Fair enough she has to tell me what to do, but she speak to me really rude and proper shouts, even though i already had a migrane. I was actaully nearly crying cos she was really rude.

And i like this guy, but as per usual he doesn't like me back. I mean we're mates but nothing more, which is depressing, cos i thought he liked me but he doesn't *sob*. I was actaully really hoping i was in work this to escape it all, but its my only night off till sunday!, what bad luck